I started smoking the sweet Mary Jane at 11 years old. I had to go to the public library in Damascus, MD, to work on a short essay, and my older brother and his friend BJ said they could drop me off.
They were driving and smoking out of a large glass tube with a bubble at the bottom. I was curious. They handed me the bong.
I walked into the library and forgot my purpose for being there.
I laid on the carpet in the kid’s section of the library, staring at the enormous paper mache dinosaurs which dominated the room.
I imagined being a dinosaur.
RAWR
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I felt buzzing throughout my entire body. I felt like nothing mattered except a distant land that existed inside my mind of the triceratops and pterodactyls.
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Sīla, Samādhi, Pannā
Fast Forward to me now, 26 years old and sober.
.No more dirty martinis for you.
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What is it like living on Dhamma Land and throwing yourself into a forced state of constant sobriety? And how has it altered my mind?
Well, I am absolutely
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Of
my.MIND
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I can observe every thought, I can see them clearly as alternate entities that do not define me in any way.
I am separate from my external thoughts, and now I know how to harness my
RAWWWR.
When I hate myself, I am kinder because there is nothing to drown myself out with. When I am sad, upset, and even want to dance and sing, I have to enter that state of freedom that exists only once I have climbed the mountains of my daily inner repetitor.
This base of Sīla leads to Samādhi, a deep state of concentration that allows me to experience Pannā, the wisdom of my body that exists with no solidity.
I feel every molecule moving, a state of vibration similar to that of my first time getting high, except my awareness is peaked, and my body becomes a storm of exploration.
Thus my thoughts can not be concrete.
They are simply waves in the
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_simulation_
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which can be used to alter my world.
These three work together to give me a more in-depth understanding that
I am
a child
I come from a creator, thus I harness a power to create from nothing,
to use energy and paint planet Earth.
I am
ALíEN
👽
My Music comes from aliens.
