God, everything was Ego, and if everything was Ego, I could laugh it in the face. And face the world better.
I could work harder, wake up earlier, sleep later, breathe each moment because it was in the moment that I found you.
The North Star Has Risen
My entire body became a city, and I had to fight through so many mountains, valleys and caves within the mind. I had to unlock clues and move onto the next phase, or level. I still do, it‘s a practice.
The Ego drifts away as I continued down the puzzle. I built spaceships and connected wires that did not exist. I believe this to be a message about a very complex machine that I now hold in my mind.
>>>Enter The | SIMULATION./>
I can solve and create in the blink of an eye.
; I can build. ;
I can develop ideas and creations out of nothing,
for I am myself made out of
I was nothing. I faced this angel from hades. She was covered in vines; she hissed at me and moved her body within mine. You chose this, she laughed as I fought what I could not resist. I could not fight the beast which I consumed.
But that which I consumed was like choking on blood.
Flash Back to the SouthEast Vipassana Kitchen
I washed dishes for miles.
That was all I had to do, and it was good.
It was peaceful. It was just me as I was, there at the moment.
With foam all over my hands
A rubber apron and a soft cotton
Kurti wrapped around my skin.
But it couldn’t be real,
It was a blimp in the simulation.
I existed only for the womb.
This river of consciousness,
Held me tight, in the arms of dawn
And by night
I danced beneath billions
The mosquitoes pierced my skin.
And if I broke my vows
I would smack them
And the blood would pour out of their sacks, making marks on my arms
I was a sister of the swamplands.
I was acting like a nun.
But inside, I was just an alien.